“Overwhelmed”: A Blog About What’s Going On In The World

By feeling overwhelmed, it means the person is given ‘too much of something’. Sometimes people feel overwhelmed by emotion, and yes this can be a positive or negative experience, depending on the emotion.

I don’t usually post or write about what’s going on in the news or topics of this sort. Particularly because it sparks debate.

For the main part, I don’t like to debate people.

But today, I thought I’d chime in because this is enough!

I remember when the Trayvon Martin case was on TV. I was about 4 or 5 months pregnant with our son. When they read the verdict I nearly threw up! I remember thinking, “I’m bringing a black baby boy into this world soon” and how I feared for him as his mother.

Then more lives were taken.

Eric Garner, Philado Castile, most recently Ahmaud Aubrey and George Floyd. It’s disturbing to the point where it really does sicken me to my stomach. When I think about these men, I think about my Husband, my Dad, my Uncle. I think about it personally. How they were someones friend, someones significant other, someones father, someones son. I hurt for those who have lost their loved one so viciously.

Then there’s the women like Sandra Bland. I really thought mostly until Sandra Bland, it was only men being abused or murdered by Cops. This struck a nerve with me because when I was younger, I used to get pulled over by the Cops a lot for speeding and incorrect tags. Many of them were nice. Some not so much. I thought to myself, “what if that was me when I got pulled over?”

But what about the Police home invasions? Well, that’s a whole other topic too.

Life seems so invaluable to some people. It’s particularly scary when that some is wears a badge! It’s not only scary, it’s horrendous and foul.

On top of the Covid-19 stress, this is just too much!

I’m sick, I’m sad and I’m angry this continues to happen…

May God bless each and every family member that has gone through this, and the witnesses who have watched helplessly as these people who are supposed to protect, kill.

Until next time…

A Passion For Creating

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Many of us have had a lot of time on our hands since this horrible virus has come about. Although I am a mother of a 6 year old, as I have stated in other posts, I really am able to get a lot done and have enjoyed (most days) getting to spend so much time with my little guy.

Although a writer at heart, as I’ve mentioned before I love to thrift!

Two of my shops I have on Etsy have really come to a slight slow down. I mean honestly for my home decor vintage shop, I just haven’t added anything lately because estate sales have been dry and thrift stores have been closed. I know, I know you are probably saying what about “online auctions”? You know what I tried it. Back in March and I am just now scheduled to go pick up items.

I am thankful in away that things are opening back up, but as I said in my last post, “Why I’ll Be Staying Inside” I kind of go into detail about my health situation and how I’ll be hiding out per se for awhile longer in order to try to keep our family and myself healthy.

But while I’v been inside, I decided to take a further analyzation of my shops. I have Dear Alice Co. , which I was initially selling handmade items on and then decided to nix the jewelry I was making and just go with my handmade notebooks and vintage home goods, collectibles and kitchenware. On my other shop Blu-83 Vintage (which I initially split from Dear Alice Co.), I sell strictly vintage clothing (mainly from the 70’s, 80’s, & 90’s) and accessories well there was nothing to change there.

So, I started brainstorming.

I said “Wait!”

What if I took my collage art designs from my handmade notebooks I had been selling on Dear Alice Co. and put them on t-shirts!!!

So was born my new shop “99th & Lydia Co.“!

In the midst of a pandemic, somehow I have remained optimistic and am still having fun.

I am still writing as well. Not just on this blog, but finishing up the 2nd book in my Melody Thomas Series which I anticipate I will publish next Spring (Maybe sooner)!

Just thankful right now, to still be using my gifts and still be doing what I love, love, love to do which is create!

Until next time…

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P.S. Check out my NEW shop 99th & Lydia Co. at 99thandlydiaco.com launching May 22nd, 2020!

 

Why I’ll Be Staying Inside

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In many states things have began to “open back up”. Many cities like Kansas City, Missouri have put in place a slow phase in of opening back up starting as soon as this week.

Here’s my thing…

I’ve always kind of been a germ-a-phobe and needed my 6ft. I also never really like being in crowded spaces, it spikes my anxiety something terrible.

As I said in previous posts, this really got worse once I became a mom in 2014. The germ-a-phobe part and the anxiety part. I nearly cussed a lady out one time in Walmart for petting my newborn baby in the store like he was some attraction at the Zoo.

The nerve of some people!

I have no problem with wearing masks either. Nobody in our community seems to wear them though.

The reason I will be staying at home until they find a vaccine for ‘ol Rona or until people actually take this seriously and try to help prevent the spread. Which sadly I don’t see happening.

I am totally cool with just going to pick up food when needed and just going to get medications. My husband has been doing the grocery shopping so I’m cool on that as well.

I do worry about what precautions and the procedures they are going to take in schools this Fall, but that’s a topic far from my mind right now.

The reason my family and I have been taking extra precautions is because truly the fact is that if I contracted this vicious virus, the likely hood of me recovering if slim to none.

Currently I’m in stage 5 renal failure (ESRD) and I have high blood pressure issues.

I’m just not willing to take that risk.

Very few folks it seems are taking this seriously and by cities reopening, I am believing what Dr. Anthony Fauci said. There will be a second outbreak.

I am praying that this doesn’t happen, but I am hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. If this means not going anywhere. So be it.

Heck, I would love to be at someone’s estate sale or thrift store right now shopping for items for my shops. But is it safe for me? No.

I understand many people need for the world to open back up because of employment. Which is all fine if proper procedures are followed and enforced. My opinion personally is people are gonna do what they want though.

What are your thought on “The Rona”?

Until next time…

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Instagram Live Battles

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There have been few things I have truly enjoyed about this pandemic, quarentin-ing, stay-at-home thing.

What I have found most enlightening and joyous has been these Instagram Live Battles between artists and when my favorite artist goes “Live”.

Now I have missed quite a few of these major ones like the first and second attempts at going IG Live from Babyface and Teddy Riley.

I heard it was a complete mess anyways.

Although this wasn’t on Instagram…I didn’t see the first $1 concert from Erykah Badu, one of my all time favorite artists EVER, but I did catch the next live $2 Sunday Concert. I felt like this was so clever to charge on her own website. Also, I loved how it wasn’t a traditional concert and she gave the option to switch up the flow and go to different rooms in her house that each provided a different vibe.

Other people who I’ve caught on Live are DJ’s, D-Nice and Kansas City’s own and fellow Center High graduate DJ Q and our radio station Hot 103.3 radio personality Brian B Shynin’.

I am however anxiously awaiting for this Saturdays upcoming IG Live Battle between another one of my favorite artists Jill Scott and Erykah Badu!

Now on this one, I have done some heavy contemplation and I mean this is a difficult one.

Both are considered neo-soul artists of which I was both introduced to around the same time, back in middle school/high school. I’ve seen both in concert and have all their albums, but I won’t say who I think would win because that’s just hard because they are both phenomenal artists who I love both, so I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.

Have you caught any of your favorites on Instagram Live during this pandemic? Who was your favorite?

Until next time…

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Quarantine Blues Part 2

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I have no idea what week were on of this Stay-at-Home order/Quarantine. I lost track days ago.

Here in Kansas City, Missouri I think it’s supposed to end May 15th. But, for me I don’t see an end in the near future. For those of us “immune compromised” folk, really I feel like it’s best to stay inside most of the time or as much as possible.

I’ve been to the post office and gas station this week, as far as getting out the house goes. This took weeks for me to do and honestly every time I go out, a little fear touches my soul.

Before this week I had only been to ride in the car places, like to pick up food at a restaurant or with my husband to the grocery store. I saw a few people at the gas station wearing masks, but really it seemed that everyone else except the clerks didn’t have masks on.

I was surprised.

My son who is six years old, is getting really antsy most days. Especially on days where it’s been too cool to go outside. Thankfully this week it’s been nice weather. It’s challenging as well to help him with school work and accomplish my work at the same time. He actually told me he missed going to REAL school. He got to talk to a few of his classmates on video chat and see his teacher as well, which he enjoyed immensely. But it isn’t the same as seeing your friends and playing with them.

This whole thing seems very weird for most and it is for me, but only to some extent. Let me explain…

I always tried to utilize what they now are calling “social distancing”. When someone would be in line at the grocery store or other places (especially when I became a mom with a small infant) I always felt like it was necessary not to be all up on people in line. People to me never had appropriate boundaries. Just my opinion.

Being the introvert that I am, minimal social interaction is just fine with me.

I miss my weekly excursions to the thrift store, my parents visiting and seeing my baby boy’s face light up when I picked him up from school.

 

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Losing “Z”

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Last week was rough.

We had our first foster child leave. It was super sudden and very abrupt.

We had been fostering this little guy since he was 3 months old, since last July.  He was our very first call. When we got the call it was the middle of the night. They give you very little details. They tell you why they are coming into care and the age and sex of the child and ask if you’re willing to take them in.

We had signed up to take newborn to 4 years old. Was I excited our first call was a baby?

Yep!

We got to watch this little guy grow from being so tiny, to walking and getting into everything. He had developed quite a feisty attitude, to which we had grown accustomed to love.

Baby “Z” had these adorable piercing blue eyes that made is turn to mush.

Although we were led to believe that he might not ever be “reunified” with his family, they ended up finding a distant relative to take him in.

After 9 months of being “mom” to two boys, it’s odd now in a way going back to being mom to just 1 child after 9 months.

Needless to say my husband, my son and I were sad to see him go. I never expected for our entire family (aunts, uncles, cousins and grandparents) to become so attached to this kid.

We learned so many lessons being first time foster parents, but that’s a post for another time.

Until next time…

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Quarantine Blues

Quarantine Blues

 

Wow!

I haven’t posted in awhile…

Life has been quite a roller coaster, to put it lightly.

As I have mentioned in previous posts, I had been diagnosed with Kidney Disease back in 2016. Well, back in 2018 I was at about 25% function.

They had advised that I eliminate salt and lower protein intake which I had been adhering to. However this diet, caused me to start loosing weight. For most this isn’t a problem. But for me since I was, and have always been a smaller woman it started to become a problem.

Then my Kidney function at the beginning of 2019 just started on a downward spiral. Regardless of this diet that was supposed help preserve my Kidney function, it just wasn’t helping at all.

In the Fall of 2019, I was told that I needed to start seeing about a transplant. I was at about 12% Kidney function and that I was headed toward Dialysis.

Now this word “Dialysis” has always scared me. I was so sad and angry! Why was this happening to me?

Most people ask, “How did you get to this point? Like, what caused this?”

I ask the same question. Dr’s have never been able to come to a definitive conclusion. Often times it’s Diabetes that causes Kidney Disease, but I don’t have that thankfully. Sometimes it can be an autoimmune disorder like Lupus. But I don’t have that either.

But long story short, I did have to start Dialysis in February of this year.

This Corona Virus has definitely been something scarier to deal with since I am considered, “Immunocompromised“.

I was having to be cautious anyway just in everyday life, now I’m having to use extra special caution especially since my husband works at a hospital.

I will be glad when this over!

I am by nature an introvert, but my goodness…being in the house with an almost 1-year old and 6-year old all day can wear a nerve sis.

I do pray all of my readers out there are safe and doing well at home.

Are y’all coping ok during the quarantine? If you have any tips about how to get through this, let me know in the comments.

Until next time…

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Upcoming Works: The Fall 2019 Edition

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Hey what’s going on?

It’s me again, Nicole Alicia coming to you from my living room, writing this blog this afternoon. I am trying to squeeze in a little post before I have to rush off to do my hair (so I don’t look to crazy for my friends baby shower tomorrow) and before I have to run and get my kids from daycare/school.

I just wanted to do a quick post about what I’m working on. Maybe for verification to myself that I am actually “getting back to the writing” as I say, and partially to update you, my lovely readers who continue to hang in there with me and read my ish (I really appreciate you ALL).

I had this idea come to me over a year and half ago that I started working on, but I got stuck and then health problems slipped in, making the decision to grow our family through fostering, life and yada yada yada.

I’m obsessed with vintage culture as many of you know I have two vintage shops online because of my obsession Dear Alice Co. and Blu-83 Vintage.,<———SHAMELESS PLUG 🙂

Because If I decided to keep all the cool stuff I find, my husband will kick me out LOL 🙂 Just joking, but I do have a slight vintage collecting problem, so I thought why not share, and sell some of the stuff I find right?

But in addition to the whole “vintage thing”, I love black history.

I love hearing stories from the elders on how life used to be or how things were when they were young. I also started researching my families ancestry Summer of 2018. Now on my mother’s mother’s side my Grandma Alice, there’s a lot of mystery and also not that many elders left to get information from, but it was interesting what I found out.

Also surrounding that, I specifically love hearing about Kansas City and how it was “back in the day”.

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So, I decided to run with these two topics and began to write what is most of our grandparents story. How during the “Great Migration” if you will, during the late 1930’s and 40’s our Great-Grandparents and Grandparents  came from the South to the “Big City” to start a life.

I don’t of course want to give it all away, but I think you get where I’m going.

P.S. This will be a novel….not sure if it will be my second or third 😉

A lot of the time, we don’t want to look back. But if you look close enough you can see that really like the Bible and my Daddy say, “There’s nothing new under the sun”.

Until next time….

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