I am odd. I love reading books and writing. I’d rather sit at home and read, than go out most of the time. I enjoy being alone sometimes. I am socially awkward. I rarely speak in social settings, because I am in deep thought or analyzing a situation. I am very slim and that hasn’t changed and I’m almost certain it won’t ever.
A lot of these things may be interpreted different by different individuals.
For years I was told by teachers and peers that I need to be more talkative, more assertive, more this and more that, less this, less that.
Now in my thirties, I just recent was able to accept me.
In previous relationships, I was told that I was weird, too closed off and stayed to myself too much. I was also told that I was needy. I was told that I was too skinny, too hairy and not pretty enough. Unfortunately, because I had all of the confidence knocked out of me by this bad relationship, I began to believe these untrue things about myself.
Another guy came along and told me that I was all that and that I was beautiful and wasn’t too skinny and that what I was asking for in a relationship wasn’t a lot or abnormal. For some reason I was looking for outward affirmation. But I needed to realize who I was and be happy with myself. Looking for approval with in your relationship or with another person is so unhealthy.
God made you unique! There is no one on this planet exactly like you.
Once I learned to accept me, I was able to say this is who I am. Love me or hit the road!
However, I had to realize it for myself. Sometimes it’s an on going battle because we all have our bad days when we get down on ourselves right?
It’s so important to learn to love yourself. I know it sounds cliche, but it’s so true.
If you don’t accept yourself first and who you are as a young lady. Be happy with you!
Take a moment between relationships, take a moment before you get into a relationship.
Don’t let anyone change you for the worse! You’re beautiful!
Until next time ladies, peace and love!
-Nicole Alicia
Nicole Alicia 