The Realest Post I Ever Wrote

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Life has been a busy blur these last 8 months. My son started school last Fall, my Dad started having health issues in October leaving my parents heavily dependent on me for transportation needs. Negative comments on my shop pages almost prompted me to quit selling Vintage all together (which is something I love) and the list of negative things just goes on and on.

Through all of this, I still managed to enjoy life and stay productive though.

Honestly, writing had been on the back burner you guys. 2019 has been interesting, to say the least.

Not writing however, always hurts me. It’s been a refreshing outlet for me for so long.  When I don’t do it, t’s literally like holding my breath underwater. Either I come up for air or risk blacking out and drowning.

My husband actually reminded me last week that I had sent him a finished manuscript for a Novel that I completed way back in 2016. I had totally forgotten that I actually have finished manuscripts just waiting to be edited and published. Crazy right?

But you know when life gets hectic and messy mess, it can be stifling to ones creativity.

Being a writer is hard!

Sometimes the ideas don’t flow like water out of the faucet. Sometimes you don’t write everyday. Heck, in my case sometimes you don’t write for weeks!

Writing does require a certain amount of focus.

Focus is what I have severely lacked due to all this other stuff going on in life.

It’s time for me to stop holding my breath though. Nobody wants to feel like they’re drowning in life itself.

I am hoping with the Summer months coming up I can get back to it. With me not having to utilize every moment of my 6 hours that I usually have from the time I dropped off Jr. at school, to the time I picked him up to actually relax and get some writing in.

Are you guys excited about Summer? I am for other reasons as well. I’ll share some next post.

Until next time…

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Nervous Mama

Nervous Mama

Many of us are preparing for our children to go back to school. I think even some are back to school already.

Some of us have babies going to school for the first time…

That’s me!

My little guy will only be in pre-school this year, but he’s super-duper excited!

Me………I’m getting there.

I knew this time would eventually come, but it seems like it just came so fast!

Seems like only yesterday my son was a little baby, in the NICU, that we were trying feverishly to get to eat more than 3ml’s a feeding session, so he could come home with us.

At 3 months old, I did have to go back to work and it was painful! I had to leave my little preemie with people I barely knew at daycare.

I feel the same way again!

I know once we fall into a routine, it will get easier. Well, I’m hoping.

As I write this, I feel the tension in my neck think about all the things that could happen, while my baby boy is away at school. I do tend to let my mind wander too much, I am definitely guilty of that.

This was the ultimate goal though, right?

He will always need mama, but it’s time to let my little dude be away from me again even though it’s only for 6 or 7 hours or so.

He’s happy, so I guess I should be too!

I’m sure I’ll cry that first day after we drop him off.

Any other mom’s out there having the same feelings?

Let me know in the comments!

Until next time…

Nicole Alicia sig